i inhale take it in the hate the anger
  it clouds my thinking it pulls me under
  further further my eyes lose sight
  my ears grow deaf my mouth is gagged
  i exhale get rid of confusion
  returning my focus i try to keep my grip
  closer closer lights come on
  to kill the black festering inside
  i inhale i choke i exhale i choke
  i crawl you kick i choke on hope
  if i, swallow everything that you give
  to me i would vomit on this world
  i see your delight in my mistakes
  using my shortcomings to your full advantage
  you're full i'm empty the story old and stale
  a thousand times over torn to laugh
  as i sit crying whining in selfishness